Encircle Me, I Need To Be Taken Down

Yeah, i did. that's why i was like, "Haha, you're funny." While thinking, "You don't know the half of it."

In other news, I'm friends with Tawny and Brannen, but some shit mightve happened with that so i dunno. Anyways, we snorted painkillers on Halloween, and i grabbed Brannan's crotch cuz he let me. And apparently he's bi, and if i was more fucked up, we'd have prolly made out.

I'm such a slut.

Anyhoo, when u coming home again? this weekend is a Jeny/AFCW show at Eagle's Lodge. Me anjel and Tawny are gonna go together, then hit Dan's B-Day party afterwards.

I was a lesbian for Halloween. I had flannel on, a bought a mullet and wore a trucker/Nascar hat on over that. I walked around yelling, "PUUUUUSSSAAYY!!!" and "VUUURRRGIIINNNAAA!!!"

It was fun, i got candies.

I've also taken the liberty of vandalizing school property. Mainly this one stall in the boys bathroom. I had previously wrote, "I [heart] Faggots!" But since then it's been washed off. So today i wrote, "I Want Your Cock in My Throat!"

So how're u.

Fuck anyone new lately?
a dicklicker.

I Am Now Definitely a Psych Major

We're reading a chapter on sexual orientation, so i thought I'd ask a question.

When people would joke with you about being gay, did you know at that time that you were?

After you answer, I will tell you my answer. I want an unbiased answer.

Thinking about a Gender/Sexual Orientation Research Project,
a crazy person

Kinda Stressing Over My Spring Schedule

I decided the other day to figure out what classes I wanted/needed to take for my entire college career. !--insert stress from pulling hair out--! For about 8 minutes, I thought I wanted to go Pre-Medical Psychology and thought I was going to be a Psychiatrist. That's out though, thank God. Just below that is a Clinical Counselor, which can perscribe meds also, but just have to go to Grad School instead of Med School. I might be able to handle that. I don't know, yet, but at least I don't have to re-take the Bio Class I just dropped!

I'm glad you told me what's going on with Matt. I like the know these things, but I don't really have a comment on them.

Sarah Silverman? Ok, I watched an ep the other day. Some comments made me want to pull my hair out, others made me laugh hysterically. She was protesting abortions even though she had had 3 of them, and there was even a loving flashback sequence dedicated to each of them. "You mean I can't have any more abortions?"

Though I'm not dead, I may turn into a Zombie this weekend. There's a Psych Research Project I'm participating in (for extra credit) where it starts of with one person being a zombie. They tag other players making them zombies and humans can stun the zombies with nerf guns and rolled-up socks. At the end we get a T-SHIRT! !--Humans Vs. Zombies--!

Congrats on the High Speed internet and sorry about Chiller.

I'm trying to analyze your poem, but I can't quite grasp it. "A momentary relapse, this is not, Forever binding." So is it momentary or will you stay disconnected forever? I want to know/understand.

I Heart Your FACE

Signals Lost on Forgotten Humans

Are you dead?

I'm finally getting high speed broadband internet this weekend. The only cost is that i have to pay 20 a month, and i no longer get the Chiller channel.

Will u ever arise from the surface?

Catch a glimpse of me fading,

fading into existance.

I give a smirk as your hand waves,

casting shadows off the light of the sun.

A momentary relapse, this is not,

Forever binding, it shall be.

Forever binding, you will know,

that this love is everlasting.

Me, forever fading.

"This Is Going To Make You Freak"

It's now sunday afternoon. 5pm-ish, and i'm listening to techno, and watching Torchwood. How multi-taskin fab is that? anyhoos.

Eric is getting back from Bloomington tomorrow, so he'll be free all week. Unless he's going to like, Canada or some shit.

Yesterday, me and Anj met up with Matt at Jay-C. Again, over by the RentWay truck. At first, we were just hanging out, then Matt wanted to make out, so i asked Anjel if she would go to Walmart and we'd call her when Matt had to head home. (Don't worry i apologized to her later!)

Anyways, after she zoomed off, i me and Matt made out for a little while, then he pulled out his dick and i jerked him off a little, made out some more. Nothing hxc.

But he wanted to see what type of underoos i was wearing so i showed him, which is why my belt buckle was undone. Then he had a candle in his car, and i lit it to get rid of the cigarette smoke i'd inhabitted in it. And he went to pour the wax out of the door, and it spilt on my leg next to my crotch. And to this second, i still don't know if that was intentional, however, when Anjel picked me up since Matt had to head home. Picture this: Me getting into Anjel's car, with some odd, crustyish, clearish white substance all over my pants, and my belt buckle undone.

I know, bad right?

Well i explained it all to her, while we got funny looks as we were walking around Walmart, with my belt BUCKLED, but the wax was still there however.

LOL. It was fun. He's off work ALL DAY wednesday, and since the beauty salon girls are all on vacation this week, i said we should hang and get drunk. I'mma have my mom buy me more Arbor Mist. Which i recently found out mom was getting the $4 small bottles! They have $7 bigger ones! I was like, "GIPPED AGAIN!"

Btw, Sarah Silverman is my new hero. Me and Anjel rented the first season from Movie Gallery last night, and it's HILARIOUS! like cancer!

Stud-Belted Stud,
Physically Active Homo-sapien

That's All Folks? Huh?

I doubt anything will happen with Matt. Not a going out kinda thing, i'm now even doubting anything physical will happen anyhow. So whatevas.

You haven't blogged for like a week. And when you do, it's J's life story? HUH? VAGINA!? WHAT!?!?

I really wanna get drunk again. I've got no cool plans, and next week is Fall Break, so that sucks and stuff.

Gotta go, the twins are crying.

La da dee.
Me.

I'm So Happy For You

I'm glad you can actually be with someone (of the right gender) you like, and not to sound to big-sister-ish, but I just wanted to know if you want to go out with Matt or if it's more physical attraction. I just want you to be happy. So with that said, I'm going to let out a fangirl-esque happy SQUEE!

The Toy. It has had some use, but mostly I want to take it slow with that. I do love him. OH YEAH! So we've said "I love you" to each other now. It feels good to actually say it, instead of just thinking it. He's a little needy when it comes to saying it, and he needs to hear it a lot, but I understand. He was always bouncing around homes, had 3 different "father" figures, and his mom hasn't always been there. He spent about a year living with his grandparents. Maybe it's just the Psych major in me, but I understand that he's just looking for some security, something tangible to hang on to. He's more insecure than he lets on. You probably thought he's really arrogant, but really that's just his satire. He's joking almost all of the time, and I think it's just an act so he can feel in control.

So enough of the psycho-babble-bullshit. I've forgotten, does Buddah now know you're gay? I'm not sure if you've told me.

Trying to remember I have internet access,
Not Quite a Psych Major